Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must, but take the step. What great words of wisdom! Taking that first step is always the hardest. Fear is a hindrance. Step past it.
Look at those poor kittens. You can do something to help them. Maybe take them to a shelter so they won't have to fend for themselves anymore or feed them yourself if they are feral. Or provide them with shelter outside.
That includes the people who think returning a cat they have had to the rspca because the cat no longer suits their lifestyle is acceptable. You were the cats home and your giving away your furry child to an unknown person.
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