home alone. you break down. letting out everyone. crying as hard as you can. you family comes home, and here you go. pretend everything is ok. they don't suspect a thing. they don't suspect their child is broken and falling apart
Dear mom and dad, I'm sorry for failing you. I'm sorry for not being your dream daughter, I know you did your nest and I know how much it hurt when you found out what I'm doing to myself. I'm sorry for letting you down.
I am not me anymore. That is the simple and plain truth. I am no longer that Dutch student who lived a boring life in the south of Holland. I am an Element of Nature, result of a botched experiment. I am a reanimated corpse.
I want to tell my boyfriend so badly. He'd get so upset. I promised him I wouldn't do it anymore. If I told him, he'd tell my parents, then they'd get mad at me and send me to a hospital. I can't. I want to. But I can't.