Toxic people will hurt you and then try to make you feel bad that you are mad or hurt or upset. It's known as blame shifting. Instead of taking accountability for their own actions, they blame others for having feelings. Abusive people do this
One of the hardest decisions you can make is to remove yourself from a toxic relationship with your parents. At some point you have to acknowledge the verbal and mental abuse they put you through even if they refuse to take accountability and move on.
This is sad but true. Nobody really knows the real me. My deepest secrets, my darkest thoughts, my wildest dreams. And I am fine with that. I am a complex person and I don't expect people to understand me.