You don't get it okay, it's not easy for me to explain. But I'm not trying to be lazy, it's just that I'm so tired and I have no motivation to succeed and I don't even know why this life is happening to me.
No matter how freaking hard I try I'm not okay. I'm broken! I am falling apart! I am having a hard time holding on. I'm broken and I can't seem to heal. I can't do this anymore. I'm done with everything.
Please don't ask if I'm okay. I might do something stupid like open up to you and I'm really tired of getting close to people and watching them leave me like I'm nothing. I always lose the people I'm close to
I'm exhausted from trying to be stronger than I feel. I'm truly trying to forgive and let go. I'm tired of being afraid. I'm tired of crying. I know I'm enough. I just have to reiterate that dialogue internally and focus on the good.