especially now that I feel useless and worthless due to PTSD. I'm always convinced that people will leave me, hurt me and lie about being a friend, so trust is a huge risk. Abandonment has been experienced so often, I just expect it.
I don't want to push you away. Every day I get that bit better but it will be a tough journey until my broken soul is fixed. I only hope that you can stick by me through this last hurdle so I can begin my life anew and I can heal.