Hamlet often looks for answers to reassure himself of his decisions. This unease towards uncertainty plagues Hamlets ability to find peace. This is why most people believe he is mad(even I did at one point).
Feeling unsure and lost is part of your path. Don't avoid it. See what those feelings are showing you and use it. Take a breath. Even if you don't feel okay all the time.
The lack of in-between is not beautiful - or someone would have loved it at least once by now. Instead, that lack causes uncertainty, fear, and eventually, disinterest. There will never be a way to connect deeply with another person. How can I?