im not sure if im depressed i mean im not sad but im not exactly happy either I can laugh and joke and smile during the day but sometimes when im alone at night i forget how to feel. The truth of how we all feel
I understand my flaws. I understand it’s me, and that it’s my fault and you deserve better. I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough for you but please stop reminding me. I live with it everyday. I’m trying to work through it. I don’t want to be an empathetic strong woman or any of those other things that knows what she wants. Not if it costs me the love of my life and my best friend an if the only contact I get is to be reminded of it everyday. Maybe I’ll be somebody else.
How to feel again. Because I always lose touch with reality so i dont have to be in pain. These are the pure moments.