"And perhaps one day she'll be truly happy. And when you ask her, "Are you ok?", for once she'll say, "I'm fine.", and it wouldn't be a lie." I'm so glad I can honestly now say "I'm fine" with a real smile on my face.
There will be times in our life that we would want to do something that we think will make us feel alive or make this life more meaningful. But as long as we do things that our heart desires it could make us happy and make us feel we are alive.