My Dad would not want me to cry. I miss you Daddy so much and all the memories of this year and the start of your decline come flooding back and how much you suffered and the horrific nightmare in the ICU!
the saddest kind of sad is when your tears can't even drop and you feel nothing. it's like the world has just ended. you don't cry. you don't hear. you don't see. you stay. for a second, the heart dies.