Study me as much as you like, you will never know me. For I differ a hundred ways from what you see me to be. Put yourself behind my eyes, and see me as I see myself. Because I have chosen to dwell in a place you can't see - Rumi
Never depend on someone else to make you happy. Only God can make you happy! Create yourself a full, happy life, seeking God and finding hobbies and ways to express your gifts, and your man will be included in your happiness, a gift from God.
Sometimes you just have to accept that some people are shitty humans and stop trying to see the good that isn't there. - It's takes a lot for me to believe someone is a shitty human being, but once I do, I'm done.