Accept that years were wasted on an alcoholic. Accept that you were married to a man who was in denial. Let go of the abuse you took from an alcoholic. Let go of the man who chose drinking over his children and wife. Have faith in what will be.
There is no such thing as going back to square one. Even if you feel like youre having to start over, you are trying again with more knowledge, strength power than you had before. Your journey was never over, it was just waiting for you to find it again.