Nothing will ruin your more than thinking you should have your life together already. It takes time to figure stuff out! That's alright, it's called experimenting, learning and becoming yourself. This is very true
Grieving is scary, but having a frown to sit silently beside you.that makes it less scary. (Scary Shit Series - Stillbirth — a really sad topic but one that's really important. Give it a read so you can support anyone that goes through it.
Just because you aren't given the credit and haven't been recognised for your work doesn't mean you have to give up or stop. You don't always need credit, other people do not always have to know what you are capable of doing as long as you do.