Yes. Even though I've tried to rid my mind of your smile and the way you held me, I've had to come to terms with the fact that you're a part of me. I'll always carry you with me. I don't know whether to be happy or sad about that.
All of this...that I've lived can't be for no reason. I KNOW that one day, hopefully soon, there will be meaning behind the heartache, the delusions, the maladjusted-ness, the anxiety, the pain and the things I think are burdens. I just have to get over these humps so I can see the horizon and the sun ahead. Can't lose track of the fact that this (life) is in fact a journey with LOTS of lessons to teach.