Trust what you feel. If it feels bad, it's probably bad. You don't need a reason to walk away from something that is stressing you out or making you miserable. Once you get rid of the bad, there's so much more room for the good!
Learn to drive a stick shift. Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back. Decide whether you want to be liked or admired. Decide if fitting in is more important that finding out what you're doing here.