The toe in the mouth, the fart jokes, the noises, how he makes me hiss but I refuse to admit he makes me hiss. At some point along the way I fell for him and rather than just say it and own those feelings I pushed him away.
Not pretend, but our friendship's over now (or maybe not, I don't know) and messaging him to tell him that I miss him is just inappropriate. I doubt it'll be fine for him to be my friend again. Knowing him.