Unfortunately, we learn, a little late down the path, that most things that we worry about and give our utmost intentions to don't really give us comfort . Stopping and putting things in perspective of fond memories and happiness doesn't happen often enough.
May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art. And I hope, you surprise yourself.